Without the Dark We Never See the Stars

 

We celebrate the new moon today. During this phase, the sky will be bright with the expansive number of stars filling the void of the moon. This phase represents newness. New beginnings. The sun and the moon are in perfect alignment.

I feel my energy shifting and realigning into its own new phase but unlike the moon, I don’t wish to repeat the same pattern. Change is hard. Living life to be comfortable and safe blurs out the knowing. That little voice that tells me what is true and real for me. That voice nudges me in the direction that my spirit should go. It’s been distant but I hear it. I feel it. Sometimes loud and clear but even in those times, I have rarely trusted it enough to turn inward and let it stand. To sit with it and honor it, to love myself enough, or to think that I was deserving enough to listen and move towards the knowing.

Glennon Doyle wrote in Untamed, the aim is to shorten the gap between the knowing and the doing. This is tough when doing leads you far away from what has been safe.

This phase in my life is part of my journey. My journey has been messy, curvy, and covered in uneven terrain. There has been much heartbreak but an abundance of love and joy along the way, lessons learned, wisdom gained, and truth sought.

I will continue to listen and remember that like the new moon no matter what phase I am in, I am still whole. 

A New Day

 

The new dawn is an opportunity to reach for newer and greater things. I drive into the sunrise each morning and never tire of its beauty. My breath is taken from me as I draw in the vastness. I’m not the only one seeing it yet its energy captures me. For a moment in time, it’s just me and this star that is the center of the whole solar system. Its energy is the most important source of energy for all life on Earth. I feel so small in comparison yet full of life having witnessed such radiance. May we all experience such resplendent attraction to the gifts shown to us each new day. 

Student

It's official! I am so crazy excited! I walked around campus today thinking "this is my campus" I don't think I ever felt that when I attended EUP for undergrad.  Perhaps it's age...with age comes (for some) wisdom.  I had to decide for myself that I wanted this. I had to take the steps to make it happen.  I am still in shock that it is happening!

Sometimes You Have To Create Your Own Rainbow

I said at the beginning of this year "This is the year of Moving Forward!" I was not going to go another year and be in the same spot. Every decision or reflection has been made by asking myself, "Is this moving forward?" It has helped so much and also made me very aware of how I often live in fear. Fear of change. Fear of loss. Fear of mistake.  Fear of confrontation. Fear of rejection. One cannot move forward when living in fear! It's exhausting. I have found myself sitting in silence thinking there was no solution until I asked myself if the action was going to result in moving forward. Often the answer was no so I knew what I needed to do.  The more I have moved forward the more confidence I have found in myself.  Myself. Self. She has been dormant for a long time. It was as if she awoke and realized she had enough rain and was ready for some sun to shine.  

Astounding Beauty

I was sitting by the pool playing lifeguard when I took this picture.  Paired with bright blue skies, Cumulus clouds are my favorite.  I am a firm believer of weather affecting the brain. I tend to have a springier step when the skies are blue and the clouds are white and puffy.  I need to work on seeing the blessings in the grey sky but for now, I will just enjoy the astounding beauty in today.

A Typical Mom or Atypical Mom

This is normal - right? :)

We tend to judge moms as if we have it all figured out. Working in an early intervention room for children with Autism has been eye-opening. These Moms take on enough that they don't need all the judgments and Mom shaming on top of it. Calm down.

Passionate Notes